27 on the 27th.

I lost confidence today.
I lost complete trust in myself.
I have never been feeling lost and not focus for the 27 years.
But today I did.

Even though I have done this so many times, yet,
This time it completely shuts me off.
What's wrong with me, I thought to myself.
I wasn't nervous.
I wasn't anxious.
I was prepared.
But not spiritually.

I wish I knew, but I don't.
I stood in silence.
Looking at mirror.
The girl I saw staring back at me with a thought,
Have I lost my mind?
Do I have faith in myself?
I just broke down in tears.

What was I thinking?
What was it that is too much to bear?
It's not something new to me.
But losing confidence in myself,
Just feels like bricks falling off the wall that I've built over the years.
Where was my foundation?
Was the base not strong enough?
Guess I was wrong all the while.

It made me feel vulnerable.
I was fragile.
It took me sometime, to pick myself up and walk again.
If I don't, who would?
Remember, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
When the tough gets going, the going gets though.
It's life.