27 on the 27th.

I lost confidence today.
I lost complete trust in myself.
I have never been feeling lost and not focus for the 27 years.
But today I did.

Even though I have done this so many times, yet,
This time it completely shuts me off.
What's wrong with me, I thought to myself.
I wasn't nervous.
I wasn't anxious.
I was prepared.
But not spiritually.

I wish I knew, but I don't.
I stood in silence.
Looking at mirror.
The girl I saw staring back at me with a thought,
Have I lost my mind?
Do I have faith in myself?
I just broke down in tears.

What was I thinking?
What was it that is too much to bear?
It's not something new to me.
But losing confidence in myself,
Just feels like bricks falling off the wall that I've built over the years.
Where was my foundation?
Was the base not strong enough?
Guess I was wrong all the while.

It made me feel vulnerable.
I was fragile.
It took me sometime, to pick myself up and walk again.
If I don't, who would?
Remember, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
When the tough gets going, the going gets though.
It's life.

Kindness

Be kind. Always.

There is absolutely no excuse whatsoever to not be kind. Even you don’t like someone, they still deserve kindness. Even if you’ve had the worst day of your life it is not ok to be mean or rude and ruin someone else’s day.
We have no idea what other people are dealing with in their own lives.

Just be kind to everyone, everyday, no exceptions. 

The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won.

You will be sad, I understand;
Don't let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.

We've had so many happy years -
What is to come can hold no fears.
You'd not want me to suffer so;
The time has come, so let me go.

Take me where my needs they'll tend
And please stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time that you will see
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.

Please do not grieve - it must be you
Who had this painful thing to do.
We've been so close, we two, these years -
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.

Author Unknown

So I've learned.

7 Keys to Life:

1.

God first.

2.

Love one another.

3.

Never hate.

4.

Give generously.

5.

Live simply.

6.

Forgive quickly.

7.

Be kind always.

Life goes on.

Regardless of whatever you face in life,

whatever that brings your down,

whatever your happiness may be.

Remember to always smile, for you don't know that it will change someone's day.

Always be kind, for you don't know what battle people face in life.

The Wedding Poem

His hello was the end of her endings,

Her laugh was their first step down the aisle.

His hand would be hers to hold forever,

His forever was as simple as her smile.

An ocean couldn’t prevent it.

A New York minute wouldn’t let it pass.

Does the universe decide for us,

Which love will fade and which will last.

He said she was what was missing.

She said she instantly knew.

She was a question to be answered.

And his answer was “I do."

- Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and The City -