27 on the 27th.

I lost confidence today.
I lost complete trust in myself.
I have never been feeling lost and not focus for the 27 years.
But today I did.

Even though I have done this so many times, yet,
This time it completely shuts me off.
What's wrong with me, I thought to myself.
I wasn't nervous.
I wasn't anxious.
I was prepared.
But not spiritually.

I wish I knew, but I don't.
I stood in silence.
Looking at mirror.
The girl I saw staring back at me with a thought,
Have I lost my mind?
Do I have faith in myself?
I just broke down in tears.

What was I thinking?
What was it that is too much to bear?
It's not something new to me.
But losing confidence in myself,
Just feels like bricks falling off the wall that I've built over the years.
Where was my foundation?
Was the base not strong enough?
Guess I was wrong all the while.

It made me feel vulnerable.
I was fragile.
It took me sometime, to pick myself up and walk again.
If I don't, who would?
Remember, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
When the tough gets going, the going gets though.
It's life.

Kindness

Be kind. Always.

There is absolutely no excuse whatsoever to not be kind. Even you don’t like someone, they still deserve kindness. Even if you’ve had the worst day of your life it is not ok to be mean or rude and ruin someone else’s day.
We have no idea what other people are dealing with in their own lives.

Just be kind to everyone, everyday, no exceptions. 

The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won.

You will be sad, I understand;
Don't let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.

We've had so many happy years -
What is to come can hold no fears.
You'd not want me to suffer so;
The time has come, so let me go.

Take me where my needs they'll tend
And please stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time that you will see
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.

Please do not grieve - it must be you
Who had this painful thing to do.
We've been so close, we two, these years -
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.

Author Unknown

So I've learned.

7 Keys to Life:

1.

God first.

2.

Love one another.

3.

Never hate.

4.

Give generously.

5.

Live simply.

6.

Forgive quickly.

7.

Be kind always.

Life goes on.

Regardless of whatever you face in life,

whatever that brings your down,

whatever your happiness may be.

Remember to always smile, for you don't know that it will change someone's day.

Always be kind, for you don't know what battle people face in life.

The Wedding Poem

His hello was the end of her endings,

Her laugh was their first step down the aisle.

His hand would be hers to hold forever,

His forever was as simple as her smile.

An ocean couldn’t prevent it.

A New York minute wouldn’t let it pass.

Does the universe decide for us,

Which love will fade and which will last.

He said she was what was missing.

She said she instantly knew.

She was a question to be answered.

And his answer was “I do."

- Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and The City -

I wish you..

 

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

 

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

 

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

 

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

 

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

 

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

 

I wish you enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Good-bye.."

What Bob Marley said that made my day. :)

Reading his words just made me realise a lot of things. Inspired me indeed. 

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you." 

"If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you're not worthy. Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."